(CoLA timeline)
We were going to go to the mountains, fucking mountains! Everyone in the family was preparing to go, we had food and backpacks even first aid kits. The zombies going on a field trip to recover some sort of artifact, I was pumped as other than some large hills in Syn I had never been to some mountains before. I made sure everything was fine with Xan, cut him open put food in his stomach then seal him shut. Even set up loads of wards of defence to protect him while I was gone, I was going to be away for a long time he needed protection. My love... Wake up soon.
First we gathered at the warehouse to make sure everyone was here, Cara was running late but that gave us plenty of time to sort ourselves out. Passing around packs, kits and various other things. Once Cara showed we were on our way through the lands outside of LA, that included the Pack lands we had to traverse through. At the tunnels we re-grouped and went in, dark, dank and gloomy in there my sort of place, no sooner had we reached the inner chamber and began to search one of my wards went off.
I ran out of those tunnels fast as I could to where I keep Xan's sleeping form, the ward being triggered was a false alarm. I relaxed. Yet by the time I had gotten back to his side it was too late to go back to the tunnels, I cursed my bad luck and felt like I abandoned them. Xan is family too he's part of the AR, and he's my husband. Never before has there been a tug like this in my life, family above all others family first.
What do you do when one member of that family is not only a part of yourself, but also your lover and husband?
Lulz of the day:
[2012/02/07 13:50] Blueray Darkes: Everytime its loads of retarded questions, and then pointing out this person and that person and do I know of them. I DON'T CARE! I don't pay attention to celebraties, I don't care if they're from England, I don't care if they decided it was a good idea to dress up in a giant bunny suit with clogs on and went dancing the fucking hula on top of the world's largest satilite
Saturday, 28 January 2012
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
Strange dreams
(CoLA timeline)
When I'm not watching over Xan or hunting or even working for the AR, I tend to curl up beside my husband and sleep. My dreams are strange to me as I'm in another place, another time altogether that makes me pang for the ones I hold dear.
I'm an angel... My wings are mutilated my feelings are that I've done this myself, they keep growing back and I keep breaking them. I wasn't always an angel I was once a demon, this dream is familar to me somehow. I don't know why or how but I've been dreaming this a lot, and it just progresses along each time the dream comes to me. The first time this happened I saw Drake, then Savannah and Magpie, though everytime he shows up I get this coil of hatred, betrayal and anger towards him. Ah... The angel thing is his doing, how cruel to trap such a proud being in a body like that. Skyler won't talk to me anymore because I stink, I kill humans to
I see everything that happens, how it happens, why it happened. All I can do is watch as this isn't really me, this isn't even real its not really happened. Fuck I miss them. Days of being sick because of the change, days of wanting revenge for the hurtful condition. Time moves on I can see me standing with Savannah, I still want to grope her but we talked instead of old days. Seems anyone I meet I'm always talking about the old days...
More old faces they're now Kytara and Fraz, the pangs again even as we talked. Old days always the old days, they were wanting to rejoin the House and I still refuse. I wonder why I'm so adament on this refusal, I miss my family I miss my friends though I tortured my friends. Hehehe. Sigh...
Now I see Skyler, Asher, Dracon, Jules, Monk. People I spent time with as a family, Skyler wants back in and Asher is already there. After watching my brothers fight like toddlers I go to see Dracon, my bodyguard, my fighter, one of my own confidants. Where are the others? I didn't find Savannah or Jaco again, I saw Felice briefly before I attacked and ate some neko fingers. I don't like this dream anymore it causes me pain, I really should stop opening that door but...
I woke up and fell off the bed my face was wet with tears, I'm dead I shouldn't be able to cry anymore. I'm not just a demon anymore I'm a Risen, not the first hybrid but the first demon one. Demon zombie there's a first, I know I've been dreaming about something that's why I was crying. I sat on the floor for some time as Xan sleeps above me on the bed, eventually I drag myself up to look at him and smile. I gave up a lot to start here and gained a lot too, the laws of the Archaics are the same ones that I used to follow back in days past. Family before all others. I know I failed that law back then, don't ask me how I only just figured that out.
My heart aches though, I need to stop that. Its too human too emotional, and I don't have time to waste on that shit.
When I'm not watching over Xan or hunting or even working for the AR, I tend to curl up beside my husband and sleep. My dreams are strange to me as I'm in another place, another time altogether that makes me pang for the ones I hold dear.
I'm an angel... My wings are mutilated my feelings are that I've done this myself, they keep growing back and I keep breaking them. I wasn't always an angel I was once a demon, this dream is familar to me somehow. I don't know why or how but I've been dreaming this a lot, and it just progresses along each time the dream comes to me. The first time this happened I saw Drake, then Savannah and Magpie, though everytime he shows up I get this coil of hatred, betrayal and anger towards him. Ah... The angel thing is his doing, how cruel to trap such a proud being in a body like that. Skyler won't talk to me anymore because I stink, I kill humans to
I see everything that happens, how it happens, why it happened. All I can do is watch as this isn't really me, this isn't even real its not really happened. Fuck I miss them. Days of being sick because of the change, days of wanting revenge for the hurtful condition. Time moves on I can see me standing with Savannah, I still want to grope her but we talked instead of old days. Seems anyone I meet I'm always talking about the old days...
More old faces they're now Kytara and Fraz, the pangs again even as we talked. Old days always the old days, they were wanting to rejoin the House and I still refuse. I wonder why I'm so adament on this refusal, I miss my family I miss my friends though I tortured my friends. Hehehe. Sigh...
Now I see Skyler, Asher, Dracon, Jules, Monk. People I spent time with as a family, Skyler wants back in and Asher is already there. After watching my brothers fight like toddlers I go to see Dracon, my bodyguard, my fighter, one of my own confidants. Where are the others? I didn't find Savannah or Jaco again, I saw Felice briefly before I attacked and ate some neko fingers. I don't like this dream anymore it causes me pain, I really should stop opening that door but...
I woke up and fell off the bed my face was wet with tears, I'm dead I shouldn't be able to cry anymore. I'm not just a demon anymore I'm a Risen, not the first hybrid but the first demon one. Demon zombie there's a first, I know I've been dreaming about something that's why I was crying. I sat on the floor for some time as Xan sleeps above me on the bed, eventually I drag myself up to look at him and smile. I gave up a lot to start here and gained a lot too, the laws of the Archaics are the same ones that I used to follow back in days past. Family before all others. I know I failed that law back then, don't ask me how I only just figured that out.
My heart aches though, I need to stop that. Its too human too emotional, and I don't have time to waste on that shit.
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
The summons
(Toxian Timeline)
Jules called me to that city, the city that I mostly avoid now. Not even my monthly visits are worthy of that place, yet my family and friends are those that I left behind. Since they can't leave that island like I can.
Jules called me.
And I went.
My last visit had pulled me there to see Kytara and Fraz, I was happy to see them I really was it had been three years. We caught up on a lot of stuff that, old times that we all still shared. Today I couldn't find Jules at all at least not for a good several hours, in the meantime I pre-occupied myself watching two of my brothers mouth off at eachother. Skyler and Asher I never thought that two egos in the same place would be back, Lee a demoness I had met with Kytara and Fraz had a hard time stopping the fighting.
Skyler and me had a small disagreement about the Shadows, how the old is gone its time to start with the new. He didn't love Pieter like I did like I had used to and yes he left with us but he wants to return, I stand by my decision and by knowing I can't abide by false ones on the throne like Skyler can. Course when the current holder of the throne showed up I left, I could feel my brother Dracon near by. Jules was with me by then we caught up with both Dracon and Monk, I would have liked to go check up some of my other friends but its a matter of catching them around.
However I got distracted by a neko boy that decided to get too close, I had him flattened on his back and two fingers removed off him in almost no time at all. What? I was hungry! I told Dracon I could come back if he called for me, that would be the only reason why I'd visit at all. Fuck it even that traitorous Magpie could call for me if he wanted, I would proberly punch him in the face for the effort. Yeah friends and family can call me, if I'm there I've got a reputation to keep up. Simply put I'm free, the old values are gone. I'm not sticking around to make new ones, where's the worth in that?
Lulz of the day:
[21:29] Oliviana Firelight offers her some brown sauce with her meal
[21:32] Blueray Darkes: YOU MONSTER
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight: HAHAHAHA
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight dies laughing
Jules called me to that city, the city that I mostly avoid now. Not even my monthly visits are worthy of that place, yet my family and friends are those that I left behind. Since they can't leave that island like I can.
Jules called me.
And I went.
My last visit had pulled me there to see Kytara and Fraz, I was happy to see them I really was it had been three years. We caught up on a lot of stuff that, old times that we all still shared. Today I couldn't find Jules at all at least not for a good several hours, in the meantime I pre-occupied myself watching two of my brothers mouth off at eachother. Skyler and Asher I never thought that two egos in the same place would be back, Lee a demoness I had met with Kytara and Fraz had a hard time stopping the fighting.
Skyler and me had a small disagreement about the Shadows, how the old is gone its time to start with the new. He didn't love Pieter like I did like I had used to and yes he left with us but he wants to return, I stand by my decision and by knowing I can't abide by false ones on the throne like Skyler can. Course when the current holder of the throne showed up I left, I could feel my brother Dracon near by. Jules was with me by then we caught up with both Dracon and Monk, I would have liked to go check up some of my other friends but its a matter of catching them around.
However I got distracted by a neko boy that decided to get too close, I had him flattened on his back and two fingers removed off him in almost no time at all. What? I was hungry! I told Dracon I could come back if he called for me, that would be the only reason why I'd visit at all. Fuck it even that traitorous Magpie could call for me if he wanted, I would proberly punch him in the face for the effort. Yeah friends and family can call me, if I'm there I've got a reputation to keep up. Simply put I'm free, the old values are gone. I'm not sticking around to make new ones, where's the worth in that?
Lulz of the day:
[21:29] Oliviana Firelight offers her some brown sauce with her meal
[21:32] Blueray Darkes: YOU MONSTER
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight: HAHAHAHA
[21:32] Oliviana Firelight dies laughing
Saturday, 29 October 2011
The era shall continue, Legends never die they evolve
(Toxian timeline)
It fascinates me to know even new residents have heard of me, I've always wondered why has no one heard of the others. Pieter has always been a legend in his own right, the one who fought and was never beaten. Guardian of the Shadows til he became the Lord, always working to cause fear and chaos. Not only my dearest friend and a few times my lover, but also one of my many teachers on how to tread the path of darkness. If anyone needed to thank anyone for me being such a terror, its Miriam for sending me to the Pack, the Pack for trying to break me, and the Shadows for making me what I am.
I'm sure that Janvier my father has been heard of as he had returned to the throne at one point, he didn't stay long in order to re-establish the Shadows as a force to be reckoned. Janvier is a legend as the dark Lord he who rose the Shadows twice, made them feared, made them strong, made me a demon. Just his mere presence sent people shrinking back in fear.
Jason the guy who can shoot you in the nipple from twenty feet away, who had such dastardly plans that took weeks to come to fruitation. Not only had he enjoyed playing them all for saps, but he made the entire populace terrified. The only known Shadow who was able to stand up to Rau toe to toe, for she is a fearsome fighter and gives no quarter as is Jason.
Dante who's gone missing was another fearsome warrior, he became Guardian when Pieter became Lord and I became Perceptor equal in rank to Dante. He knew battle tactics from every standpoint, he never lost a fight and us together pulled off one of the best Shadow rescues for one of our own ever.
No these people aren't mentioned.
I'm the only name that passes people's lips, the only name whispered in the dark, the only name that is spat with venom. Why should I alone take all the credit? Not that I mind I'll let you know, but there are other ex Shadows who deserve just as much vocal time as me.
Once more I visit the city on its island after two months of skipping, since I'm still pissed off at Magpie for what he did. The betrayal as that's what it feels like to me still stung pretty badly, rather than go to the church to seek him out I took to the bar instead. I found an interesting vampire who I spoke to with a while, he started to talking to me because he said I acted like I owned the place. I told him I been here before a long time ago, we dicussed the cunning of demons and how its good to let go. Going on to say how I ended up as an angel, dispising myself for this body I was now in and most of all about nothing at all. This vampire said he had heard of my name and the tales that surround it, he expected me to be a terrifying Shadow lord not some badass angel. I preened at that, had to admit the pride I had as a demon and a Shadow are still with me. Appearence may change but I never will.
Before leaving I asked him to tell Magpie I want my book back, and to tell who ever it is telling people he called Magpie; Magpie first, to stop taking my credit. Came out that it was Reaver and that guy knows better than to take my credit. Fucker!
Lulz of the day:
[10:13] Nibblit: I have two :o They are two male Meeroo's who are in love with each other, because the evil lampost across the Kingdom of Nibblits Room demands everyone be the same as Father Clock-on-the-wall.
[10:15] Nibblit: The king slaughters chickens for their love of lesbi-dom. They call theirselves GUICCI - Gay Understanding for Intrepid Chickens Chosen Into... Lesbianism..
It fascinates me to know even new residents have heard of me, I've always wondered why has no one heard of the others. Pieter has always been a legend in his own right, the one who fought and was never beaten. Guardian of the Shadows til he became the Lord, always working to cause fear and chaos. Not only my dearest friend and a few times my lover, but also one of my many teachers on how to tread the path of darkness. If anyone needed to thank anyone for me being such a terror, its Miriam for sending me to the Pack, the Pack for trying to break me, and the Shadows for making me what I am.
I'm sure that Janvier my father has been heard of as he had returned to the throne at one point, he didn't stay long in order to re-establish the Shadows as a force to be reckoned. Janvier is a legend as the dark Lord he who rose the Shadows twice, made them feared, made them strong, made me a demon. Just his mere presence sent people shrinking back in fear.
Jason the guy who can shoot you in the nipple from twenty feet away, who had such dastardly plans that took weeks to come to fruitation. Not only had he enjoyed playing them all for saps, but he made the entire populace terrified. The only known Shadow who was able to stand up to Rau toe to toe, for she is a fearsome fighter and gives no quarter as is Jason.
Dante who's gone missing was another fearsome warrior, he became Guardian when Pieter became Lord and I became Perceptor equal in rank to Dante. He knew battle tactics from every standpoint, he never lost a fight and us together pulled off one of the best Shadow rescues for one of our own ever.
No these people aren't mentioned.
I'm the only name that passes people's lips, the only name whispered in the dark, the only name that is spat with venom. Why should I alone take all the credit? Not that I mind I'll let you know, but there are other ex Shadows who deserve just as much vocal time as me.
Once more I visit the city on its island after two months of skipping, since I'm still pissed off at Magpie for what he did. The betrayal as that's what it feels like to me still stung pretty badly, rather than go to the church to seek him out I took to the bar instead. I found an interesting vampire who I spoke to with a while, he started to talking to me because he said I acted like I owned the place. I told him I been here before a long time ago, we dicussed the cunning of demons and how its good to let go. Going on to say how I ended up as an angel, dispising myself for this body I was now in and most of all about nothing at all. This vampire said he had heard of my name and the tales that surround it, he expected me to be a terrifying Shadow lord not some badass angel. I preened at that, had to admit the pride I had as a demon and a Shadow are still with me. Appearence may change but I never will.
Before leaving I asked him to tell Magpie I want my book back, and to tell who ever it is telling people he called Magpie; Magpie first, to stop taking my credit. Came out that it was Reaver and that guy knows better than to take my credit. Fucker!
Lulz of the day:
[10:13] Nibblit: I have two :o They are two male Meeroo's who are in love with each other, because the evil lampost across the Kingdom of Nibblits Room demands everyone be the same as Father Clock-on-the-wall.
[10:15] Nibblit: The king slaughters chickens for their love of lesbi-dom. They call theirselves GUICCI - Gay Understanding for Intrepid Chickens Chosen Into... Lesbianism..
Monday, 10 October 2011
Another OOC post
http://ruthbell28.blogspot.com/2011/10/illness.html - another update on my health and other things.
http://araluiniel.blogspot.com/ - The journal of Ara Luiniel, she's a dracolich in Realm of Mystara.
http://araluiniel.blogspot.com/ - The journal of Ara Luiniel, she's a dracolich in Realm of Mystara.
Saturday, 10 September 2011
Friday, 9 September 2011
Dj booth
(CoLA timeline)
You ever been inside a dj booth?
Some of those are pretty roomy well roomy enough, I remember the one at K-Tox was located at the top floor of the radio tower. This one though for KCLA is located inside the Zodiac, its got enough space to fit about six people inside if you want. I for one have a love of getting in to this dj booths, not only for doing my own thing but well hehehe...
Lets just say Xan and me were up to no good in that damn thing, man I haven't had this much fun in a long while. He had been sleeping what felt like centuries for me so I'm more than happy to entertain him, and get what I need out of him too. I love him so.
I think that booth smells like sex now, ya know I'm so damn glad music drowns out what you're doing in there.
Lulz of the day:
[23:37:19] JesSICKa: Not enough b-b-b-bitches in here!
[23:38:13] Blueray Darkes: Ppppfffffttttt
[23:38:52] JesSICKa: I spy one!
[23:40:10] Blueray Darkes: D:
[23:40:21] JesSICKa: She's a gud one though
[23:41:10] Blueray Darkes: :O
[23:41:56] JesSICKa: ;3
[23:42:56] JesSICKa: That, and the only one to resist Jessi's swagger
[23:43:22] Blueray Darkes nodnods
[23:43:42] JesSICKa shakes fist
[23:43:47] JesSICKa: How dare ye
[23:43:59] Blueray Darkes sticks her tongue out
[23:44:08] Blueray Darkes: I'm just harder to penertrate
[23:44:40] JesSICKa: OH COME ON
[23:44:48] JesSICKa: Don't you start getting all sexualized now xD
[23:45:41] Blueray Darkes: You walked in to that one
[23:46:48] JesSICKa: I'll walk into your cooter next
[23:47:06] Blueray Darkes: If it was that wide I'd have a revolving door fitted
[23:47:55] JesSICKa: Mmh, be sure to add a cripple button too.
[23:51:16] Blueray Darkes: And a disabled ramp?
[23:51:25] JesSICKa: Might be a good idea.
[23:51:28] Blueray Darkes: Lol
You ever been inside a dj booth?
Some of those are pretty roomy well roomy enough, I remember the one at K-Tox was located at the top floor of the radio tower. This one though for KCLA is located inside the Zodiac, its got enough space to fit about six people inside if you want. I for one have a love of getting in to this dj booths, not only for doing my own thing but well hehehe...
Lets just say Xan and me were up to no good in that damn thing, man I haven't had this much fun in a long while. He had been sleeping what felt like centuries for me so I'm more than happy to entertain him, and get what I need out of him too. I love him so.
I think that booth smells like sex now, ya know I'm so damn glad music drowns out what you're doing in there.
Lulz of the day:
[23:37:19] JesSICKa: Not enough b-b-b-bitches in here!
[23:38:13] Blueray Darkes: Ppppfffffttttt
[23:38:52] JesSICKa: I spy one!
[23:40:10] Blueray Darkes: D:
[23:40:21] JesSICKa: She's a gud one though
[23:41:10] Blueray Darkes: :O
[23:41:56] JesSICKa: ;3
[23:42:56] JesSICKa: That, and the only one to resist Jessi's swagger
[23:43:22] Blueray Darkes nodnods
[23:43:42] JesSICKa shakes fist
[23:43:47] JesSICKa: How dare ye
[23:43:59] Blueray Darkes sticks her tongue out
[23:44:08] Blueray Darkes: I'm just harder to penertrate
[23:44:40] JesSICKa: OH COME ON
[23:44:48] JesSICKa: Don't you start getting all sexualized now xD
[23:45:41] Blueray Darkes: You walked in to that one
[23:46:48] JesSICKa: I'll walk into your cooter next
[23:47:06] Blueray Darkes: If it was that wide I'd have a revolving door fitted
[23:47:55] JesSICKa: Mmh, be sure to add a cripple button too.
[23:51:16] Blueray Darkes: And a disabled ramp?
[23:51:25] JesSICKa: Might be a good idea.
[23:51:28] Blueray Darkes: Lol
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