Contemplation

In the days that I hide from the city I slumber, to regain energy and to ponder on many a thing. Such a time as now is no different from the times before, I let my mind wonder in its dream like state as I lay curled in the depths of the Pit.

My mind plays tricks on me I swear it does, I have nightmares every time I sleep. The burning fire that wrecked my house, silent screams of my parents as they got murdered, the laughter of the demoness that now seems to mock me for what I am. If that isn't enough there is the things the Pack did to me, I re-live the two nights and day I was held captive by them. Sometimes I wonder why I sleep at all, but the visions remind me I have to be strong and my hate is my resolve.

For the people who wish that old me to return... forget it. There is no way I will fucking ever return to that weak willed creature, I am strong much more so than I used to be and as I say I like this darker me. You can tell me all you want that the darker side of life doesn't appeal to you, I won't believe you the curiousity of it is there you're just too scared to take the first step.

I hope to wake soon from this slumber and once more spread chaos over the city, if I ever doubt myself or feel weak there is my family who will renew my strength. I wonder if my brother Partak would disapprove of who I am... Somehow I don't even care.

Tomorrow I awaken... I can feel it.

Lulz of the day:

Blueray Darkes: He told me not to take it so personally, he beat me over the head with my own god damn leg. You can't get any more personal than that!

Going to sleep

I'm tired so I'm going to sleep, over the past couple of days I have lost blood and energy. In order to replenish it I have decided to go in to a deep slumber, before I do I have to mention that Skyler has clodhoppers for feet.

I mean really he chucked the book I was studying away from me, then to stop me from picking it up he stood on it. Ugh the text has a great, big boot print on it now, I can't even read it now its unreadable. How am I meant to study demonology when I can't read some of the pages? Practicalities please!!!

Lulz of the day:

Quiet Thunders: Everyone relax, Ed has come to save us all.